Now that summer's over
We'll wonder what to do
We'll finish our last nights in your car
Just like we always do.

I'll hold you closer and tell you I love you
but it won't matter in the end
It's obvious you're leaving soon
just another heart to mend

So what happens once you lose control?
When the future has to start
What happens when you're still in love
but time rips you apart.
Is there ever an answer
for when love is not enough?
When the world must move on
Who decided that I'd be that tough.

The day before those dreaded goodbyes
and kisses concealing the night,
I lie in bed motionless
Hoping somehow my life will be alright

So what happens once you lose control?
When the future has to start
What happens when you're still in love
but time rips you apart.
Is there ever an answer
for when love is not enough?
When the world must move on
Who decided that I'd be that tough.

It's raining as we close our eyes
Knowing soon we must let go
I loved another with my life...
But with time as my enemy, now I'll never know.

The end proves I can't do this
alone

thank god you're not going away.
i love you for always

ridiculous.  ridiculous.  ridiculous.

its time to walk into the real world kids.

nothings going to be easy anymore
friends are being really lame
everyones going their own seperate ways
we have a lot of work to do
no more hanging out with the family
no more support groups
no more cheering student section
or doing back flips and showing everyone my ass...
crew is over.
graduation was sad
nationals was even more depressing
coaches are changing
sports are more demanding
drinking every weekend is cool now?
being the worst friend in the world is cool too...
or so i'm being shown.
oh wait, maybe its only cool to care about yourself?
i can't really decide.
friends are leaving for like the navy and stuff..
which is really really depressing.
mostly because i'll miss them a lottttt.
glenwood starts soon.  wooooooo.
no more mom and dad all the time is sorta okay.
until i need their help or something.
good thing i'll be right down the street.
summer time is going to be warm this year.
thank goodness...
i was beginning to think it was never going to make it.
yeah, thats all i can think of right now.
wakey wakey eggs and bacey...
the real world is calling.

my life seems to be heading downhill as of late...
i miss my car...
my car said ouch last week
and then just died... well actually i broke it.
i don't want to talk about it though.

graduation is only 4 weeks away...
or is it 3 now?
anyway i only have 15 days of school left.
but i dont want to talk about that either.

we have a lot of essays due for miss whiting.
great is all i have to say about that.

i'm taking my senior personality picture tomorrow
i think its going to be real cute.
but i can't tell you why.

my back really hurts
but i can still row this weekend..
hopefully i'll make it through the 2 days of races.
i guess we'll just have to wait and see.
i'll tough it out if i have to though.
i'm just that hardcore.

you're the most awesome thing in the world.
and basically the hottest.
so i guess what i'm trying to say is you're perfect.
well, almost.

i think even though im really scared and nervous
next year will be fun..
i'll be around people i know and like
which is great.
and if i really need to i can just run home
considering its only 3 blocks away.
but i'm still really going to miss danielle...
and maddie.
i hate leaving friends behind//ahead.
plus i really suck at change.
so i'm just really trying to look on the bright side of things.
mostly like no parents
and being able to prove i can do it by myself...yano?
i think that will be the most awesome part about it.
just knowing i can do it alone.

a lot of the drama has cleared up which is good.
some things were said to some people who needed to hear it
and everything is okay.
so that basically means i'm really happy about that.

i dont have a date to prom and i dont know if i care.
well i do... but i'm going to have fun anyway.
cause that just means i have to go steal someone for slow dances
so i dont look like a big idiot dancing alone.
yeah, that'd be real cool, i'm sure of it.
maybe i should make some plans soon?  yeah..

my back still hurts...
but we are getting a new "back room"
actually my dad and brother are just re-doing it
and we got a bathroom back there again.
woo... i still refuse to use it though. 
i'm basically a nerd.
but yeah, we got hardwood flooring and a new bathroom
its going to look real cool
so come to my grad. party and you can check it out.
for reals.

the end.

like wow, i'm so scared
and like its all your freaking fault.
DUH.
p.s.  maybe you should catch up on your context listening skills
because well they obviously suck.
p.p.s.  maybe you shouldn't say things you know absolutely nothing about

side note... _|_ love yo fo liffffe baby gerl.
annnd thanks V8 BGs for cheering me up today
i def. needed it.
p.s.  i love raychill a lot and everyone should be thinking of her.

oh wait, i think i forgot to mention...
stop being a hypocrite.
it looks really bad on your part.
and quit telling someone to act mature if you can't in turn do it yourself.
can you understand that?  i hope so.